What about romance ... for me?

HI Everyone,
Well, here it is 11:30 p.m. on a Saturday night and here I sit, alone, by myself, in my apartment. No date on Saturday night.
Actually I shouldn't complain .. I did have two dates this week, but don't think I'll be seeing him again. He walked me home the second night, came up, realized I had 2 cats and freaked out. I doubt he'll be back, but who knows.

I went to see Woody Allen's new movie late this afternoon. It's called: Vicky Cristina Barcelona. I loved it AND parts of it were tough to watch. Why? Because it was sexy and romantic. I want that! Plus, Javier Bardem is really "hot."

What made it interesting is that although I really enjoyed it, as I usually feel about Woody Allen movies, I also left a bit depressed. Let me explain.

There's something about being over 60 that makes me fear I'll never have a truly romantic, loving relationship again and that I'll be alone for the rest of my life. What a waste that would be. Here's the rub ... I'm great in relationships. I'm loving, affectionate, sensual, a fun companion. I love to romp and play and have adventures. I tend to adore the man I"m with and definitely contribute to him feeling great about himself. But, truly, there aren't too many men (unless they're like 70's or 80's that are interested in a 62 year old women. Even though I look young! What's a girl to do?

I wonder if men of 62 have the same problem? I guess if they're wealthy, then even younger women come after them. Are there more women beating down the doors of men, despite their age than there are men beating down the door of women of this age? I'd love to hear about that.

Now, I really can't complain. I DO seem to attract a few younger men. I've got a couple of 40 year olds interested... but altho fun, don't see much of a future in that. I mean, can you see me as the step-Mother of a 5 year old? I don't think so.
Am I a cougar? By definition, I suppose so. I do like younger men. But, do I deliberatly go out and look for them? No. Would I like to find more of them? Yes.

Anyhow, some ramblings on a Saturday night... before I go to bed alone.

Point: We need to love ourselves for who we are ... even if that's being alone. We don't need another person to "complete" us .... but it sure beats always feeling alone.

And, of course, there are those activities that are much more fun and fulfilling with another person.Oh well, guess I'll continue wishing and hoping.
And, if you're reading this and you're a man and you're not married -- let me hear from you. Who knows. Or, if you're reading this and you are married AND you know a man who might be available .. send him my way. Oh, and the younger the better.. well, really, not under 40.

Thanks and have a glorious Sunday.
Ann, "the cougar" Fry