OMG ... I Feel So Purposeful Today

HI Everyone.
Day Four since being diagnosed with Breast Cancer.

Today has been an excellent day... NO breakdowns. Yesterday I was a blubbering baby, crying much of the day, feeling sorry for myself, scared. Today, I'm feeling my normal, usual self and even optimistic about all I'll be going through. Of course, that could change in 5 minutes ... being female, dramatic, etc. But, I'm enjoying it.
Truthfully, a thought breaks through every few minutes and I remember that much of my life might be changing and yes, I get that anxious, fearful feeling .. and then I just let it go again.

The reason is ... I feel purposeful and I feel loved and supported.
By going public here and on Facebook, I'm hearing from all sorts of people ... ones who know me and even those that do not. I'm being offered healing sessions, connections to other breast cancer survivors (which I'm already calling myself) ... and of course, I'm being offered a lot of love.

The next reason I'm feeling purposeful is this ... this blog. I get to chronicle my experience so others can resonate with it and know that maybe it makes a difference for them. As a lifelong social work therapist (even tho I no longer practice) .. everything I do carries with it the desire to help others.

And, the last reason I feel purposeful is that all of this resonates as my next logical step in my own reinvention. In fact, there's already a potential third book in the series -- working title: It Wasn't Supposed to Be Like This: Being "forced" to ReInvent When It's Unexpected.

For those of you who have followed me for some time ... I reinvented 3 1/2 years ago when, at age 60, I sold everything and moved from TX to NYC .. for a new adventure. I wrote about it. Now, I teach ReInvention workshops based on a 7 1/2 Step Process .. and am completing that How To book. I've always wondered what my next iteration would be ... and now I see.

I'm going to use my great sense of humor, my social work smarts, my genuiness openness and feelings to navigate US (as in you and me) through a tough process.

Today I rearranged my entire office. I live in a nice sized one bedroom apartment in NYC. I work out of my apartment. My office is half of my living room. I just cleaned out bags full of stuff I no longer need, rearranged the furniture in a more Feng Shui energetic way ... and now I'm waiting for my phone to begin to ring with much more work ... calling me to my purpose. In metaphysical language... I've created a vacuum of space for more to come in.

So now you see why I'm so energized today; although I must admit, that now at nearly 10:30 p.m. .. I'm starting to get very tired.

I expect to be writing much of the weekend, doing more cleaning out, and having some fun with friends.
I hope you'll have a fabulous weekend too.

I may or may not blog over the weekend... depending on what's happening.
Hugs to you,
ann